Sometimes I feel that it is so hard to put into words what one really feels or thinks about. To write for me is to slow down, to study, and reflect.. So I guess I'll start with what is on my mind now.
Anger. I have read and fully agree that "anger is the anesthetic of the mind." -C.S. Lewis. Out of it we build walls of self-protection and subsequently begin to hurt others out of it. Anger blinds us to anything else but what has hurt us, and allows us to lose sight of what is ultimately important. Even if our anger is just, it does not set us, or the other party, free.
This is what I have been discovering...
It sucks that most of the time we learn the hard way. I sometimes wish that I was perfect, not lacking in understanding, self control, or wisdom. But here I am, trekking thought this messy life the hard way. Hurting myself, and others, hoping deeply that somehow I am saved by His grace.
However, once the anger dies down, and forgiveness begins to take root, isn't the truth that all we really want is redemption and reconciliation? Don't we simply long for peace and unity? All hippie talk aside, I realize that all I truly desire is His will.. whatever that is.. to mold my life. I am a shifting sand without His forgiving, guiding hand in my life.
On completely different note, a good friend and I discovered a sweet new little place to study in downtown Dallas... it's a small picture but isn't it cute?! I thought so too.
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