Goals

I think I was wiser at the age of 12 than I am now in one regard: goal-setting.

I made up tons of little goals and promises to myself.. everything from riding dolphins (which I would still love!) to writing all of the fun things I would do with my future husband- ha! 

There is something to say for having goals. My goals have been all but null and void the last couple years or so..  My focus has been scattered between just trying to feel normal again and feeling like their was not much left for me to aspire to (a lie from the devil himself). I haven't verbalized a whole lot of goals out of fear of not reaching them and then feeling like a failure. Well, I'm sure even the greatest people experienced a failure or two before reaching their goals, but that's just a guess ;) So, in light of this realization, I'd like to post a few goals or destinations I would like to arrive at in the nearer-than-not future.

But first, I have to write a couple fantasies I have that may be a little farther from reality, just for fun:

~ It has been a long day, emotions of yesterday are creeping in, and realities of today are a challenge. It was hard to go through the day trying to be okay.. so I come home and begin to play. Everything I wish I could say floats beautifully away from the piano in musical words I would never dream of being able to express. Whatever I am feeling lifts away like a prayer, released to the heavens to be turned into a beautiful masterpiece by the only One that has the power to surpass all understanding. 

~ I have gone to school to acquire the knowledge and skill I need to help anyone I want to. I travel to beautiful foreign countries and offer myself to those who have never known the luxury of so many things I take for granted every day. I make a difference for many only in the way a good friend would, with humility, wisdom, and determination. I am not well known, except for in the hearts of these special people that touch my life probably more than I could theirs.

~ Somehow, through this mess of a life, God enables me to have the understanding and words to speak to those who want to give up hope. Maybe they feel they are too far gone; they can't see their infinite worth, or they are so angry they don't know the difference. Truth is spoken and wounds in both of us are healed. This is the real, good life.

And finally..
~ It is a cool evening, the crowd is restless and ready for their show. We have been practicing for months. I pull on the last of my bright pink and black, spandex uniform. My entrance is nearing. I can hear the low rustle of the crowd and am filled with what feels like static electricity. The song begins, the curtains draw and I am behind him; one of six of Justin Timberlake's back up dancers.
... Okay, so I made this one up, but at least I got your imagination going! :)  


** Now, to be honest. I'd like to mention that these are fantasies that I have sometimes, when I am feeling whole and loved myself. Just because I enjoy helping others, does not mean that I cannot be a wretch. In fact I sometimes frankly suck at loving the people closest to me (why does it happen like that)? So, in the meantime I pray I will love my family and best friends in the best way I can.. :S


Okay, now for the fun and less serious goals:

- Healthier living. I have a MAJOR sweet tooth and simply enjoy almost any kind of food- but it is not a mutual agreement between me and my body. So, the goal is to find foods that are agreeable to both! This also includes a better workout schedule- I don't care if it's running, yoga, a walk, swimming or what have you, I just need more discipline in this area of my life. Which brings me to my next goal...

- To run a 10k!..... I can do it, I can do it, I can do it... Thomas the Train will be my inspiration.

- Become more diligent in my hobbies: art, craftsy-things, horseback riding, gardening, and cooking! I'd love to take some art/pottery classes. Who's with me?!

ANNNDDDD finally,

- Write a book- just kidding! (if I ever do this, and you read this statement I'll give ya 50 bucks, or a kiss, or ... a book!)


What are some of your goals/aspirations/fantasies?


Love ya!
Brenna